Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, all is well :)

I broke up with Connor last week. We're friends. Andrew and I are not "official", although according to my friend we are "obviously dating". He's in Colorado at the moment, and I am anxiously awaiting his return! My best friend returned from her trip to Jersey this afternoon. Christmas went well, New Year's is just around the corner. My Gold Award is going VERY well! And hopefully, 2012 will bring on many great things. :)

Don't look down!

Everybody has a mental cliff. Well, technically it's a mountain, but there's a plateau at the bottom and then it drops off into a cliff. Some people live in the clouds, at the top of that mountain. Others are always at the bottom of the cliff. And then there are others still who rise and fall with each curveball life throws at them.
I am currently hanging by my fingertips on the edge of that cliff. I'm barely hanging on, and the only reason I am is because of a guy named Andrew. I like Andrew, and Andrew likes me. All good, right? Nooo. Im in a super-confusing year and 3 ish month long relationship, and he's my technical older sister and best friend's ex. I haven't told my boyfriend yet, although I'm sure after tonight he's guessed. my technical older sister is still in love with Andrew, and while she seems to be okay with it all, I highly doubt she is.
Today I spent 3 hours with Andrew, decorating for Kat(technical older sister)'s birthday party tomorrow. Then we went to pep band, where both Kat and Connor were. Granted, I did not pay as much attention to Connor as I would have in the past. But he's done the SAME exact thing to me, way more than once. And then there's also the fact that I was sick yesterday. Connor made no effort to contact me in any way whatsoever. Andrew came and spent 45 minutes with me right after school before going home. So I was already slightly pissed at Connor.
Kat brought us all our Christmas presents, and I loved them and it was all good. Being that we were at pep band, I did not stay in one spot for long (I go everywhere but to actually watch the game). I was in the hallway, the basement, the music room, the other hallways. Well apparently, since Kat stayed in one place, she did not like that I was not. And she did not like that I spent time with Andrew (nothing new, always happens. We've been friends since my freshman year, his junior.). I also spent time with Sean (again, nothing new. He's my technical big brother. Not my fault he followed me to the basement with Sam!)She could have came with me, and made a point to spend time with me, but no. Instead she got mad that I was "ignoring" her. uuuuuuuugggggghhhhhhhh! To make matters worse, after she left I wouldn't tell Connor what was wrong. Since he is a major, major part of it.
He left, called my best friend, who put it on speaker so I could hear. he said some really hypocritical things about me, kinda pisses me off.
Andrew took me home, and again, he spent a good 30 minutes talking to me about all that's happened. He's a great guy, and he is totally compatible with me. He made me laugh, and we get along really well. And, were in the same boat. Confused to no end and no one to turn to but each other.
I don't know what to do, I really really don't. Were having this party for Kat tomorrow, but I have no clue how it's gonna go down. It could end up being really good, or it could end up being terrible. Either way, I'm kind of dreading it, except for the time I get to spend with Andrew beforehand.
Anyone out there who's reading this, please help me. I need it